Tuesday, February 23, 2010


Sometimes it is hard to not feel sorry for myself. I decided to do some research and it seems to take 3 to 4 months for the agency to refer 1 month worth of families. I watch as other people's newborns pass milestones and grow into toddlers and beyond. Other women I know have had two pregnancies in the time that I have been unable to have even one. I feel like I am so behind. I always wanted to be a young mom. Now I just want to be a mom and even that seems like it is never going to happen.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

New month, same status

Apparently there is a private part to our international agency's website. I believe I might have known this at one point months ago and then forgot. That was way back at the point when there was something to do besides wait. Now that we have filled out all of the paperwork, and been approved, we have loads of time on our hands. I know once out little one arrives I will long for these days of freedom. I only wish I had tons of money to spend of doing things around the house.

The other day I was using some of this free time to lurk on a message board for moms and dads adopting from Korean. I think I have posted on this board 2 times. Both times I have not received a reply. Very rude if you ask me considering I was asking a direct question.

While lurking I saw a reference to the monthly update for my international agency. I did not know there was a monthly update much less where to find it. I asked when this update could be found. Both before and after posting the question, since I had no real faith that anyone would respond, I searched my international agency's website. Once I finally found this private part of the site I had to send an email to get a password. No one ever did respond to my post on that board, but I found the information despite their efforts at thwarting me.

Sadly, the information was the same as last month. They are still working with families that were approved in Dec 2008. We were approved in March 2009. So now I wait for next month so I can go back into the website and find out who is still waiting and if the wait is the same or if it has made any changes. This queue is WAY to long!