Sometimes it is hard to not feel sorry for myself. I decided to do some research and it seems to take 3 to 4 months for the agency to refer 1 month worth of families. I watch as other people's newborns pass milestones and grow into toddlers and beyond. Other women I know have had two pregnancies in the time that I have been unable to have even one. I feel like I am so behind. I always wanted to be a young mom. Now I just want to be a mom and even that seems like it is never going to happen.